Deserving Of [Anakin, Alema]

[emlayy]

Title: Deserving Of
Author(s): Emily (emlayy)
Timeframe: NJO, during SbS.
Genre: Angst and Drama with a tiny spoonful of Romance.
Keywords: Anakin, Alema, oh snap, just plain weird
Characters: Anakin, Alema, a small dose of Tahiri. Mentions of others.
Summary: A little event occurs while they're trying to destroy the voxyn queen, and Anakin decides that Alema is deserving of --
Notes: This is complete and utter...I have no idea. Started at 11:43 PM, finished around 12:22 AM. I have NO idea if I like this at all -- on one level, I'm proud because I wrote an Anakin/Alema that wasn't really an Anakin/Alema, which satisfied my undying love for the Twi'lek, but on another level, it's something totally different from what I normally write (...or, maybe it's not?) and I don't know if I got characterizations or even events correct. (I don't read SbS that often, it's too confusing for me.) This is entirely unbetaed. I've read it through and fixed up some things I felt didn't quite sit right with it, but I have NO idea if it's any good at all.
Disclaimer: I don't own emotion, I...wait, wrong fandom. RIGHT. I don't own anything. I don't even own most of the plot because it's during SbS and therefore owned by Lucas. I do, however, own these crazy kids' actions in this minific.



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He hadn't meant to kiss her. It just sort of happened.

That was probably one of the most used excuses when you did something wrong -- it just happened.

Well, this time, it really had just happened. One moment he was slapping a bacta patch as unfeelingly and efficiently as possible on her arm, and the next he was kissing her.

See? It just happened.

Kissing Alema Rar hadn't been Anakin Solo's fault. Not at all.

After all, he liked Tahiri. He never felt quite as happy anywhere else as he was with her.

When he was with Alema? Just a ton of nerves, praying to whatever deity had the most control over Twi'leks to stop her constant flirting with him.

So why in the kriffing nine Corellian hells did he kiss her?

Maybe it was when Tekli shoved him her way and told him to help her, she hadn't even had the strength to summon up a seductive smile. Or when he touched her face, she flinched instead of encouraging him. And when he had finished cleaning her wounds and had made to go back, he had seen the tear trickle down her face.

That was probably when he had kissed her.

It was odd that he couldn't remember it all that well.

It was a relief that he didn't particularly want to do it again.

Tahiri sidled up to him. "Are you okay?" she whispered. A strand of blonde hair fell in her face.

Normally, Anakin would reach out and tuck it behind her ear for her, but he was so confused -- and a little guilty; after all, whether or not he regretted it wasn't the case, he had done it anyway -- that he let it hang there. With an equally confused expression on her face, Tahiri tucked the strand of hair behind her ear herself.

"I'm fine," Anakin said. "Why?" He hoped she wouldn't notice his confusion and guilt -- then again, they were in a battle meld...how could she not notice?

"Your injuries."

Oh.

For once, Anakin thanked the Force that Tahiri was too busy being nervous about being around the Vong to notice what he was feeling.

"Oh."

"How's Alema?" Tahiri asked, her tone making it evident that what she wanted to hear was, Dead as a Wampa on Tatooine.

"She's doing okay."

As Tahiri turned back to the task at hand, Anakin twisted around and caught Alema's eye.

Her lips twisted, but instead of turning into a suggestive smile, they settled themselves into an angry grimace.

Well, I won't have to worry about her anymore.

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This is a vig in one sense -- I wrote it all in one shot. However, I split it up into three parts. And trust me, it gets very weird from here on. I don't know. My brain just sort of took the idea and twisted it insanely.

Now, for the checklist of questions. Please answer all of these, it would help me out greatly. (And amuse me, I guess...)

Good? Bad? Do you want me to post the other two parts of this? Did I get the characterization correct -- and if I didn't, did I at least not butcher it too badly? Do you think I'm insane? Do you want to kill me for making Anakin kiss Alema? Do you forgive me because he still likes Tahiri?

[Courtney Solo]

That was awesome.

I still hate Alema, tho.

[emlayy]

Aww. I guess I'm not doing too well on the, "Let's make people be Alema fans!" front. Oh well. I'm glad you like it even if you don't like Alema. (I used to HATE Alema too, and then I read this fic on TFN that was written from her point of view and I started to like her. But, that's a different story, moving on...)

But also: I'd love it if you answered the checklist questions above. ;D

[Courtney Solo]

Good?

Yes!

Bad?

No.

Do you want me to post the other two parts of this?

Yes!

Did I get the characterization correct -- and if I didn't, did I at least not butcher it too badly?

No, you did fine!

Do you think I'm insane?

Yes. ;D

Do you want to kill me for making Anakin kiss Alema?

No.

Do you forgive me because he still likes Tahiri?

Yes. ;D

[emlayy]

Yay, thank you Courtney!

Okay, this part I am still a little iffy on -- as a matter of fact, the only part I'm really comfortable with is the first one. I'm not sure if I played the fight out right -- I didn't want it to be a long one, and neither Anakin nor Alema strike me as the kind of people who will continue the fight if what's being said really matters to them.

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Wrong. Dead wrong.

She cornered him while they hurried for cover for the night.

"What did you do that for?" she hissed, her pale eyes cold and hard. She was taller than Tahiri, but still shorter than him. But the anger in her eyes made him feel smaller than an Ewok.

"What?"

"Kiss me. Why the kriff did you kiss me? And why the kriff did you think you could get away with it?"

"What?"

"You think you can just kiss me while I'm injured and go on with your girlfriend?" Her lekku thrashed wildly in agitation and anger.

"What is your problem?"

"Some of us were slave girls, you know. Do you think that every time you're bored, you can just kiss me and then just run back to your Vong girlfriend?"

The words were harsh, and the slightly dying guilt in him came back full force.

"Alema -- it was nothing."

"Nothing? Maybe to you!"

"I didn't mean to -- it was an accident -- it just happened. I really didn't mean anything by it."

The tips of her lekku curled and slapped against her back.

"So it was an accident."

"Right."

"Okay," she said, stepping back. She tossed her head. "Fine."

Alema whirled around and walked away, her posture proud and defiant, but not before Anakin caught the disappointment and hurt sliding across her face.

I'll apologize when the mission is over.

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Still good? Is it getting bad? Do you think I made the fight realistic? If not, did I at least scrape by with it? Is there anything else you want to say? Is your hatred for Alema lessening at all? Do you think that, even with Tahiri, Alemakin is a possible relationship? Why/why not? (Hey, I was a rabid A/T shipper and I was converted to Alemakin! It's not impossible! ;P -- but this is not an actual A/A story. Really, it's not.)

[Courtney Solo]

Fight = realistic

A/T = MUST BE A/T!

A/A = CANNOT BE A/A! PLEASE NO!

Alemakin stinks.

[emlayy]

Aww, no, Alemakin is infinitely superior to A/T actually a very fun ship. Actually, I've been hanging around TFN and with this new crackship fad, not one person has written an actual Alemakin. (Oh, Alemakin, I love you so. *huggles*)

ANYWAY, thanks, Courtney. ;D Only one part left!

And I warn you, it's a very weird part. My brain just sort of ran away with me.

In other news, I got some coverart up. Made by me.

[emlayy]

Just wanted to get this up before I went to bed. This is very weird, for me, anyway, so, I hope it doesn't freak you out.

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Not a chance.

Pain. Blinding, angry, hissing, fear, hate, anger, empty --

The warriors swarmed, lashing out, hissing amphistaffs slashing at the young Jedi assembled.

And he fought.

And she fought.

Light, color -- oh.

Pain.

Through the flurry of words being sent through the meld, he vaguely felt Tahiri send Anakin's been stabbed in the gut! to the team.

Oh.

He had been stabbed?

The Force. It swirled intangibly around him, aiding him.

One more warrior -- two more, and once you're done you can end it.

End...

And then, suddenly, it was.

The end.

Someone -- Tahiri? Alema? Jaina? Was it even female? -- reached out into the meld. He's dying! Someone -- nothing we can do -- LITTLE BROTHER -- ANAKIN -- this can't be -- just keep fighting -- but HE'S DYING --

Dying. Right. He was dying.

I knew that.

Kiss Tahiri for me.

As the black fuzzed around his vision, he reached out to Alema and gave her something he felt she was deserving of.

He smiled at her.

And her lips curved into a --

Gone.

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YAY, it's done. Thinking about this, I don't like it that much at all, but I hope you do. Now. For questions. Why? Because I think too much!

01. Did you like this overall?
02. Was this chapter not too weird for you?
03. Do you think Anakin and Alema would work as friends?
04. Who WOULD you like to see Alema end up with? (And for my input, if she can't have Anakin, Zekk/Alema is a favorite of mine.)
05. Do you think that by the end of the NJO/beginning of DN, Alema and Tahiri might've been friends, or at least not hate each other?
06. Would you be interested in a vignette with a Tahiri/Alema friendship? (If I ever got a chance to write it?)
07. Have I lessened your hate for Alema? At all? Even just a smidgen?
08. Are you sick of me asking questions? I could go on forever!
09. If Tahiri died instead of Anakin, would you be open to him eventually moving on to Alema? (And if not, who would he eventually move on to? I think Tahiri being single for the rest of SW is ridiculous.)
10. Do you like the coverart? Do you think I chose good actors for it? (Just so you know -- Anakin is Tom Welling and Alema is Kristin Kreuk.)

Alrighty, this whole thing is done, and YAY, I just proved to you all that I am in fact still an A/T shipper. Go me.

Okay, so answer questions, stuff -- and kids. ;D

[Blank]

Ok, I think I will begin this very very long long answer with.....naw I write it later.

As I always say. Procastanators are people that get things done.......eventually

[Courtney Solo]

OK, so he gave her a smile - which she was deserving of?
*sighs*

I still despise Alemakin.
But that's only my meager opinion.

[emlayy]

It's a little twisted, and I think because she liked him a lot, so he could at least be nice to her -- but that was at 3 in the morning, and like I said, I don't really like this that much.

Ah, Alemakin. The king of all crackships. It wouldn't work, of course, but I like them as friends. (Well, okay, I love Alemakin, but even I can be logical about it. A/T is obviously OTP and works way better. See, I'm human!)

But thanks anyway.

[General Aleema]

I liked it too, but it was really weird at the end!

[Cassa Solo]

I have to admit it was awesome story,but............................A/T FOREVER!!!!!!

[Dorian Ravencroft]

Ok, I have now read this twice. I think that it is very well written, so well written that I read it. Although somtimes I just wanna barf! I think it might have to do with...well all the huge anikin romance CRAP! I would barf if it was not so well written!

[Courtney Solo]

ookay...

[Cassa Solo]

Your way too offensive.

[Dorian Ravencroft]

Mabey, but that right there was meant as a huge complimeant. I was saying I diliked the subject matter but I loved the writing and I was complimenting the writer for writing somthing so well that even though the subject made me wanna barf I liked it over all and even read it twice! I think thats a compliment

[Cassa Solo]

Ok,but next time you respond to someone's story it's better to make them feel GOOD about what they wrote;but this is just the way you like to be isn't it?

[Dorian Ravencroft]

yep, it's who I am. Some people like me....Some people hate me....depends on who you ask. I personally LOVE me! *looks around for mirror*

[Cassa Solo]

Vein

[Dorian Ravencroft]

I thought you said that was a good thing?

[Cassa Solo]

it is,i'm just pointing it out.

[Dorian Ravencroft]

so technically thats another compliment

[Cassa Solo]

sure,why not?

[Dorian Ravencroft]

ha two in one day

[Cassa Solo]

Enjoy them.

[Courtney Solo]

Goodness gracious, Blank, you ARE acting vain. *sighs*

[Cassa Solo]

You know how he is.

[Dorian Ravencroft]

sorry court, ( she acts likes she dislikes me, but on the inside she truly hates me)

[Cassa Solo]

Who me or Court?